He just doesn't get it does he? No, I suppose he doesn't. Because if he did, he'd shut the fuck up about Rebecca. I'm mean, I really don't care. He can go ahead and pursue her 17 times if he really wants to, but for god sake, stop fucking talking about it. Because I *so* don't want to hear about it. But then again, he's never been very good at noticing when people don't want to listen to him, has he? Maybe that's why he's in television. Every night he has a captive audience of viewers who don't ever have to talk back to him and about whom he doesn't have to care. Okay, that's not fair- he cares. And he cares about me, I know he does, but when he gets wrapped up in things like this, he becomes completely oblivious to those around him, and to whether or not they're okay. If he would stop for one second and pay attention, he would see that I really don't want to hear about Rebecca. And its not like I've been subtle either. In fact, didn't I say something like "what if you never told me the story ever." But as I said, he just doesn't get it.

And it's not that I don't care about him, because that's about as far from the truth as possible. I care. I really truly care. I probably care about him more that I've ever cared about anyone in my life. More than I ever cared about Lisa. And more than I care about Dana, despite Natalie's claims that I'm secretly in love with her. Which I'm really, really not. And speaking of wanting people to shut up, it would be really nice if Natalie would stop trying to get Dana and I together. Much like she blew the call with Rebecca and Dan, she's completely missing it with Dana and I. If only Natalie knew. Knew that I actually *am* secretly in love with someone in the office. Only its not Dana, it's Dan. Dan who won't shut the fuck up about Rebecca. Dan who doesn't seem to realize that I don't want travel 12 floors to go tell some woman all about how wonderful he is, because, well, I already know how wonderful he is, and in my opinion, I'm the only one who needs to know that. Really, what I want to do is go over to his apartment right now and read off my list of reasons why he should be pursuing me, instead of Rebecca. Only I'm not gonna do that. Because even if there ever were a day where he could accept that and understand it - which I'm not entirely convinced there ever will be - today is not that day. Today he's so fucking absorbed with his own stupid mission that he's never gonna notice that I'm standing here hip-deep in pie.